Horae
This invincible horse with its anatomically incorrect legs is a memento from the unusually productive, creative day I’ve had.  It was also inspired by Owen Pallett’s The Riverbed.

Horae

This invincible horse with its anatomically incorrect legs is a memento from the unusually productive, creative day I’ve had.  It was also inspired by Owen Pallett’s The Riverbed.

On the surface

This was the year I took swimming lessons,
learned to take deep breaths, relax muscles, float
on the warm, white surface,
Dive shallow, no need to plug
my nose               breath out
keep it all from rushing in
I could just stay
squinting into sunlight, no need to see
strange stirring fish
on the rocky bottom, sharp and beautiful

but soon, eventually, comes the deep dive,
chest burn, head pressure, salt-sting eyes,
cold and alive in the undercurrent
on the bottom floor
where sunken treasures rust

Tags: poetry

"Previous research has looked at the differences in beliefs and preferences between heavy and light TV viewers, induced by the fact that life portrayed on TV differs systematically from real life. Television programs contain much more violence and chaotic relationships and show many more affluent people and more luxury than exist in real life (e.g. Lichter, Lichter, & Rothman, 1994). People who spend a lot of time watching TV therefore tend to overestimate crime rates, to show more anxiety (Gerbner, Gross, Morgan, Signorielli, & Shanahan, 2002) and less trust in others (e.g. Gerbner, Gross, Morgan, & Signorielli, 1980; Signorielli, Gerbner, & Morgan, 1995). They overestimate the affluence of others (O’Guinn & Shrum, 1997), report higher material aspirations (e.g. Bruni & Stanca, 2006; Richins, 1987; Sirgy et al., 1998; Shrum, Burroughs, & Rindfleisch, 2005) and rate their own relative income lower which is related to lower subjective well-being (Layard, 2005)."

Frey, B S; Benesch, C; Stutzer, A (2007). Does watching TV make us happy? Journal of Economic Psychology, 28(3):283-313.

What a thing to post the day after an eight-hour TV binge!  I’m usually pretty good, though.

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Sunk Too
by Penny Goring


when I worked in the pet shop I sunk my arse in the fish tanks
sunk my tits in the freezer at the supermarket
sunk my brain in the stacks at the library
sunk my looks in the lights at the club
sunk my liver in the glass at the bar

on a day trip to the london aquarium, I felt the ennui of the squid, puked at the drift of the jellyfish, saw through the eye of the shark, stroked the sadness of the stingray, longed for the lapping of water

I sunk my hope in your shallows

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(Read the full poem here)

This poem hit me the way a good song hits you when you turn on the radio and find yourself memorizing lyrics so you can google them when you get home and find the artist and play the song obsessively for a week.

Tags: inspiration

Defensiveness vs. Contentment

I went to visit the house of a friend of the family yesterday and was very impressed by the beauty of her home and her confidence and competence as a mother.  While I admired her home and family, I was surprised to find I didn’t feel jealous of her.  I don’t disagree with any of the choices she’s made for herself, but I know that if I were to make those choices for myself they would feel unauthentic simply because we’re different people.

This step comes easily enough to me, but the next is harder: she is living in a way that is more socially accepted/admired than I am, and so I quickly come to feel like I’ll be judged by her and other people who compare our lifestyles.  When I feel judged, I get defensive, and when I get defensive I get mean and petty and pathetic.  I’m tempted to criticize her life choices (if only in my head) to make myself feel better.  I’m tempted to act the way a jealous person would act, which makes me question whether or not I truly am jealous.

I’m not, though.  When I look deep down, I find that I’m generally very contented with my life.  My house is not magazine-worthy, but I’m generally pretty content with it.  The same can be said for my body, my job, my husband and my friends.  Each day, I am moving towards a life that feels more authentic to me, and I feel content in that.

Goal: To celebrate the life choices of others, especially when they’re very different from my own, while maintaining a feeling of contentment and confidence in my own choices and NOT getting defensive, mean and judgmental.

Are you prone to comparison and defensiveness?  Any advice?

This quote by Mindy Kaling makes me wonder how many times I didn’t feel confident because I didn’t feel I had permission too.  Worse, it makes me wonder how many times I’ve felt confident simply because I felt I had permission.

This quote by Mindy Kaling makes me wonder how many times I didn’t feel confident because I didn’t feel I had permission too.  Worse, it makes me wonder how many times I’ve felt confident simply because I felt I had permission.

Per Luigi,
Cosi potrai sempre vedere le stelle.  Buon “anno nuovo.”
Da Shayla

Per Luigi,

Cosi potrai sempre vedere le stelle.  Buon “anno nuovo.”

Da Shayla

Tags: art painting

Mardi Gras window painting.  Katie did the fleur-de-lis and the white border, I did the masks and the text and we did the squares together.  Alexis provided amusement and moral support.

Mardi Gras window painting.  Katie did the fleur-de-lis and the white border, I did the masks and the text and we did the squares together.  Alexis provided amusement and moral support.

Tags: painting art

This is a thought-provoking read!  As someone whose emotional state is very affected by the seasons, I’m always struggling to make peace with the winter darkness (ESPECIALLY in January!).  Maybe I’m fighting it too hard?

Fact #1

You can’t improve water.
No amount of added sugar, flavour, colour,
vitamins, minerals, antioxidants,
caffeine, steroids, weight-loss drugs
is any improvement on the sacred substance
that by its unique properties
makes life on this planet possible,
covers 70% of the Earth’s surface,
composes 60% of our bodies.

No amount of ad space, copy writing,
Photoshop, taste-test booths, free samples,
stats from studies funded by corporations,
will ever convince any reasonable person
that this fact is untrue
(or so I believe to keep my will to live
from freezing bottom-up).

Fact #2: If I only publish the poems that are good, not only will I never publish anything but also I’ll inevitably lose motivation and stop writing them.

Tags: poetry